Thursday, December 24, 2009 { 10:22 AM }

Dancing in the dark , middle of the night
Taking your heart and holding it tight .
Oh it's a beautiful thing , i don't think i can keep it all in
I just got to let you know , What is it that won't let me go .
It's your love , it just does something to me , it sends a shock right through me which i can't get enough off .
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under , It's your love .
I am better than i was , more than i am .
And all of this happened , by taking your hand .
If you asked me why I've changed , All i got to do is say your sweet name .

Sorry for what I've done to you .
Can you forgive me ?
For you It's over , For me It's not over .
I still love you , but you ?
All our memories , happiness and loneliness
Tears , smiles , cry and laugh .
Please come back , I miss you .. A LOT .
As I've said , It's not over .
For me , past is past .
If you're disappointed , I'm sorry .
I've cried for you .
I've laughed for you .
I've changed , just for you .
Now I'm alone , Just because of you .
Now I'm alone , without you .
If i die today , What will you do ?
Come over ? Or just pretend not affected ?
I love you .
I wish I'm a grass , So that i could cut myself .
You're important to me .
I don't know if I'll be okay . You traded everything just for me .
I never realize that i love you .
My only wish for now , To be with you .
This year has been my worse nightmare , with this life of mine .
But everything changed , you removed my worries .
Now I've throwed my dreams ,
My sun shine becomes my night .
My happiness becomes crap .
You're not here , I'm alone waiting for you to come back .
I know that you can tell that i love you and i know you can feel it too .
But please don't leave me here .
I love you .

A year full of sweet depression .
I'm cut into halve , showing others how happy am i ,
Only to know that I've been suffering underneath all this charade .
I do not know what I've gotten myself into , but one thing i know ,
I do like it , when we were once together .. Oh it was too good to be true .

Sunday, December 20, 2009 { 8:48 PM }



Have you ever felt so lonely , left out , desperate or simply not needed anymore ?
Looking through the pictures in my phone just makes me want to be with you .
Every time i think of you , my heart bleeds and tears .
What is it about you that i cant let go off .
I've tried my best to forget you but when i do , i don't have the heart to .
I do not need any of your help now .
The more you talk to me , this ever growing feeling for you gets stronger .
But at the same time if i don't talk to you , this heart grows even more feelings towards you .
In any way , it will still grow .
Somehow , i just don't want to see you .
But it's hard for me to do so .
My heart is slowly corroding , tiny bits of flesh being devour by every single thought of you .
I have been thinking of really stupid and immature stuff about how could i end all this , but yet you will come to my mind and say other wise even when i know you're not there .
I know you still do care about me , i ask you for one favor .
I hope it will work , if you do care about me .. treat me like I'm someone who you really hate , who you want to get rid of , who you regret knowing .
But to think of it again , whatever you do , i don't think it will change anything .
I have a lot to say to you , but when i have the chance to talk to you , i forget everything and that sucks .
Sigh .
SW , where are you now , When everything is not right ?

Friday, December 18, 2009 { 8:44 PM }



Have you ever heard of Second Chance?
I never knew how it would hurt until it truly happened.
Even the tiniest ants gets a chance of living.
Everything gets a chance , that is only if you would give it to them.
Let me out from this nightmare , i do not wish to stay all alone here without you . Break these bars which restrains me from getting to you . It wont be the same like how it was . I Promise .
This post will not be long .
It will end here .
Is there still love , Would you still give me another chance to continue from where we stopped ?

Monday, December 14, 2009 { 7:54 PM }



Last Year , some malay trip . Dont really remember why we went there . But i do remember something . Something i dont wish to remember but i couldn't run away from it anymore . It was somehow funny , i actually got lost in that group , And i was standing beside someone . *Changes Topic*

22nd ! Remember PEACE FLIPPERS! Let's Go fly kite . venue, I DONT KNOW WHERE! . Anywhere windy can ready (: Then We go BCTIH about people at Mac (: WOOO !

Wednesday, December 2, 2009 { 8:44 PM }

Dear You

Things are..different now. The way i look at things,the way.. we talk. Everything,its just..it feels wrong.
I didnt have the chance to say anything just now because i was speechless. I still rememeber,whre you said you will be my dictionary when im speechless. All those cute times are soon left to be remain as memories. You're a great,remember that. Well,to me.. i dont think im the right one for you..there are many others guys which are way better then me. The one month we had together is now plain memories which will fade as time flies. I know i cant change anything now,soo.. i respect your choice. You didnt see me cry today,because i already did yesterday..and at ISH,when you left,i was tearing up. I dont need you to care about me for my feelings,coz there will be another guy..better than me which needs to be cared of. So,yeah.. Goodluck with your exams and stuff. I'll be here if you need me.
And i didnt have the chance to say this since i came back from vietnam..so please let me say it for the last time.
I LOVE YOU.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009 { 9:52 AM }

Im waiting here for you to text me , i just came back and all i want is to hear your voice but now..i dont think any of that is possible anymore. I dont know what had happen when im gone ,why is it like this,but whatever it is,i respect your decision. To me,i dont want you to get any scolding from them.So,if you have to do it then,just do it.Im tired and blank .. I dont know what to say. You said you're gonna text me at night but you didnt ,you just..went off to sleep. You may not know how i feel now but i truely know how you feel. This is not the first time for me,infact its the second. I pray everyday that this day wont come,but.. -.-
Enough talking .. i dont know what else to say.

Monday, November 16, 2009 { 10:28 AM }

B : Where have you been all night?
G : Waiting for you.
B : Waiting for me? but we were suppose to meet last night.
G : I know,its hard for me to get out from here,i need you to come.
B : Tell me your address and I'll come tonight.
G : There is one problem. I do not know my address but i know that,you stay directly opposite from where i am.
B : You mean..
G : Yes,The Gift Shop.I've been waiting for you to come,I've seen you been carried by your master everytime. I was hoping she'd buy me and we could be together.
B : *speechless*

Girls are like gift from gift shops, whereas guys are the buyers.
We need the right time so that we could get them.

Saturday, November 14, 2009 { 4:15 PM }

yesterday chalet with the sec 2s and YW. Haha,everything went well until some of them went to drink. Haha. YW was drunk and was walking like a new born baby giraffe,unable to walk properly. Haha.

Now,i'm at DXO!! A club in singapore,i know you might be thinking that i cant enter since im only 15 but guess what,i am in! Its for the apec performance! It starts at 8 but we came at 1. Heh! Most of them are fast asleep at those very cossy and glam sofas while im here blogging. Im soo exited for the performances with the sri warisan people. We're all like family. Obama will be here,and other #1 people in all different contries will also be here. I thought DXM was a stripper bar or some pub but its just a normal club house. Haha. I really have no idea what to do now.

Ohohoh! Cant wait for tomorrow! Gonna bowl with the mentors! Mr.sham's treat!! Haha. And next week ,wel..cant say here. :)

Sunday, November 1, 2009 { 11:36 AM }

Arid,

You dont need the blings,dope shoes and accessories to be seen as a great dancer. To me,you are already a great dancer . All those accessories are just to let others know you through your style but being simple is already great. Simplicity is unique . During the practices at airport , i dont judge the way you dress,im more focus on the moves of bboying and i know,its not only me ,the other faddies also dont judge you by how you dress. Arid,its not about the blings ,its about you and how you carry yourself. You cant let all those bring you down. You're a great dancer and everyone knows that. Live your dream,dont ever give up.

Saturday, October 31, 2009 { 9:48 PM }

YW ,

Im so confused,
about how things are.
Do you still love me?
Or are my hopes too far?
If you still love me,
Please let me know,
So that I don't wind up,
With just some other h**!
Because no matter what,
You still are my world.
And I won't waste my time,
With just another girl.
I promised you once,
That I will never leave you alone.
And you will always have a place to stay,
Because my home is your home.
But please let me know,
If you still feel the same for me,
So that I can be something,
I'd never thought I'd be again...