Friday, June 19, 2009
{ 8:34 AM }
I Guess You're Happy Now.
Im Just a Fly To You.
Im Just TRASH.
Who Care's About trash Right?
First,You use them,Then you Just throw them Away.
Im Just a Spare Tire To everyone.
To You.
I Guess,
From day one,You've been hating me ever since.
Not Wanting me To know.
Till That Very day,You just let it out.
It has only been 2 months of you resisting the pain.
i resist Everything for A YEAR!
I waited.
You Told me Those good Stuff About Zafir,It hurts but still,i have to support you with it.
After you Break up with him,I was relieve.No More zafir,no more about him.No more Pain.
But then,You went talking about Iskandhar,sec 4 acadamic.Saying how Good Looking he was,How he is and all.I still Support you even when i have to go through all this!
It Hurts!
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You made this world change,everything seems very slow,everything feels right.You Really showed me whats the real meaning of being in a relationship,but just a small move of calling you,ended it all.
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You ask for it at the volleyball court.You told me NOT to cry.Thats stupid.Who wont cry?!
Even if i cry,would you even care? After you left me in the canteen alone,I burst into tears,not knowing what to do.Zafirah,Marie..They saw me running to the toilet.I didnt know how to let it all out.
If its hard for you,Its even Harder for Me.
Im Not trying to disturb you,but you put it as i am.
You said we could still be friends.
But then you changed your mind.That even adds on to the pain.
What i wanted was JUST TO BE FRIENDS.
Oh,I forgot...You're a human,im just a FLY.
You're somebody,im nobody.
You're Adibah,Im Firdaus...two people,different heart.
Adibah,lemme say this now.Im telling you what YOUR FRIENDS,Say about you behind your back.
Adibah,You're a type of girl :
Gets BORED with Guys EASILY.
You're not worth talking to,waiting for.
To summaries that,You Worth Nothing.
Im a fly?
Who Cares? i still have others.
You're not the only person in this world.
I do have friends,YOUR friends.People who know you,know about you.
They tell me Things About you.
Well,You still call them friends right?So,i have nothing to say about that.
Maybe Im Just a Fly to you,Im Nothing.
But The others,They made me feel that im something.Unlike you,You're NOTHING.
I've lost my emotions,I cant feel anything.
Going to the doctor wont work,Its something called,Stress.
Heryani,Thanks alot.I'll think about it but,its really hard.
Helissa,Thanks for being there for me even when i disturb you sleeping.Sorry for being stubborn.
Maybe,There is one negative point about her.Only one,But..Really Big.Maybe,She doesnt even know it.I'll Tell you everything when we're at the beach before dance okay?
Athira,Its okay.Nevermind.I'll be strong.
To the others i missed out,Thanks.
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Oh how i miss everyone,holiday was fun.
Went Snorkling in the middle of the sea.Well,Not exactly in the middle.
But it was really really really far from the beach.
The corals were Really BIG.fishes were everywhere.Even squids.
Went back to hotel,sleep.Check out the next day.
Thats about it,actually..alot others happen.
But,lazy to type it all out.
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Thanks EveryOne .
