Sunday, July 26, 2009 { 10:27 AM }

I have said what i wanna say to you.
But there are still alot of questions in my mind.
I really hope you would just sit and listen.
Everyday,i wish i could see you in school.
And when i do,my heart lightens even when i know deep inside you hate me alot.
I know,you are avoiding me in school,everytime time you see me,you'll change course or just ignore me.
but that's okay.
what i want is just to see you smile.
I know..
The movie ticket,the valentine's day flower,the first month gift.
You tore them,burn and cut em all.
I dont care.
I just want you to know one thing.
Adibah,I still love you.
Do you love me too?
No,Dont answer that.I dont think im not strong enough to listen to your answer.
I've been going around,answering people's question about you.
Saying that im already over you completely.It hurts to lie to them,and hurts more to lie about you.
I dont know whats stopping me from forgetting about you.
It seems impossible,or is it that you were the one i was finding for a long time and now you're lost again.
How would you feel if you were finding for something you treasure a lot,when you found it,you waited for it till it truely shines in front of you and yours for the taking.But then, it just dissapears from your side,leaving nothing but sweet memories which hurts.
Have you feel that way before?
If you do,i believe that you truely know how i feel deep inside.
To me,You're like a tear in the ocean.Its hard to find someone like you.

Adibah,
I believe that there is that Adibah i know in you,somewhere in you.


I'll be waiting.