Sunday, December 20, 2009 { 8:48 PM }



Have you ever felt so lonely , left out , desperate or simply not needed anymore ?
Looking through the pictures in my phone just makes me want to be with you .
Every time i think of you , my heart bleeds and tears .
What is it about you that i cant let go off .
I've tried my best to forget you but when i do , i don't have the heart to .
I do not need any of your help now .
The more you talk to me , this ever growing feeling for you gets stronger .
But at the same time if i don't talk to you , this heart grows even more feelings towards you .
In any way , it will still grow .
Somehow , i just don't want to see you .
But it's hard for me to do so .
My heart is slowly corroding , tiny bits of flesh being devour by every single thought of you .
I have been thinking of really stupid and immature stuff about how could i end all this , but yet you will come to my mind and say other wise even when i know you're not there .
I know you still do care about me , i ask you for one favor .
I hope it will work , if you do care about me .. treat me like I'm someone who you really hate , who you want to get rid of , who you regret knowing .
But to think of it again , whatever you do , i don't think it will change anything .
I have a lot to say to you , but when i have the chance to talk to you , i forget everything and that sucks .
Sigh .
SW , where are you now , When everything is not right ?